I see you. I see the fear, the joy, the anxiety, and the worry washed all over your hopeful face. You have pride for this child beaming from your heart, paired with a fierce protection to uphold the innocence in their souls. Your mental capacity is to the brim as you look back to the past, curious if things should have gone differently, and a slight fear of what their future will look like. You wonder such things as every mother, only magnified times 10.
You think about where they will go to school, or if at all? Which therapy sessions are worth your time? How much should you push your baby to reach their full potential, but not crush their spirits? How you will fit in the doctor appointments? How will you pay for all the doctor appointments? Will your other children feel left out? Will they understand? What will happen when they start puberty? Will they ever be able to get married? Have children? Will they live with you forever? Will they be happy?
Let me take a moment to tell you how precious you are in the sight of God. Your calling is beyond any other and was a hand-sealed assignment for you to bear this sweet challenge of a blessing.
I know all of this. I’ve watched it, lived it, breathed it. I’ve had the privilege of watching my mother care for every detail of my sister’s life. I have seen her tears of frustration when my sister threw a tantrum, as an older child, in the middle of the mall unable to pick her up and carry her out. I have seen the countless hours of teaching her sign language to no avail. I have seen her camp out in my sister’s room for days at a time when she would have seizures. I can look back and see how her heart must have ached not to be able to take me out with my friends so she could mingle with other mothers. How alone she must have felt, yet she never missed a beat.
Having my sister 16 months close in age to me has become the greatest hand God could have ever dealt me. The beauty of giving oneself so sacrificially is admirable and something everyone should get to see.
I know, I know. In saying all these things you will point to the real hero, your child, and talk of all the richness they have bought. I know, I saw this many times.
Your worth is compounded by the efforts you put forth night and day. It’s beautiful, a blessing, and is amazing to watch. My life has forever been changed because of my sister and my mother’s tender heart toward her. So thank you to all who have the God-given privilege and opportunity to care for the sweetest of people.
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