How I Became Super Mom

This time a couple of years ago I thought I had it all figured out. I was about to give birth to my fourth child. I was juggling pretty well, so I thought. We had soccer, Sunday and Wednesday night church, a big garden, a clean home, a weekly homeschool coop, piano lessons, I made most of our food from scratch, and wrote on my blog three times a week.

It may appear like I had a cape. I even felt it at times blowing in the wind. Let me tell ya, nothing will take you off your high horse quicker than a prideful heart and a newborn with colic.

The next year was a difficult time in my life. I tried to pretend I was the ideal portrayal of what we make this superwoman out to be. I continued juggling while more and more fell apart. I was struggling mentally, physically, and emotionally. I learned the hard way that it doesn’t take long for that to spill over into the lives of the ones you love most.

It has honestly taken me over a year to recover. I still fail often. I don’t wear a cape for anyone else to see anymore. Supermom is now stamped on my heart because of Jesus living in me, not by my accomplishments. I prayed for wisdom, discernment, and freedom. He gave it. We stopped sports, stopped Wednesday night church, pulled out of our coop, left the toys on the floor, ate store-bought bread, and I stopped writing for awhile.

I started at the only place a supermom should start, on my knees. I found the more I humbled myself with hands to Jesus, the more truths filled my heart and my supermom stamp became clearer. I kept gardening as it was therapy, when time allowed I soaked in a warm bath, and I kept my Bible open.

For me, it became about saying no to great things in order to say yes to the eternal that I had lost sight of. Not to say that I don’t make my own bread again, or go to the soccer field. God leads us in different seasons for many reasons. I now know just how incapable I really am without God. When I feel myself start to fall again the Lord is there providing that wisdom for me to say no once again and cling to Him.

It has been a year of growing, learning, and redefining my motherhood role. It’s all about glorifying God,  choosing my husband first everyday, and pointing my children to Jesus.

I think it’s time we all took off the cape that has been holding us back and rest in the freedom that God gives us through motherhood. The freedom to say yes and no, to flow in and out of seasons, and to know full well all of our inadequacies so we can stay on our knees.

How about you? Has your vision of supermom changed?